Damn.
Just damn.
Summer arrived couple of days ago and I planned to have a training to improve my skills on digital art itself. But everytime, I do it, I feel slowly depress if that's the proper word for this stupid feeling or just plain jealousy. I hate this kind of feelings. They last for days and I don't like it. This emotions I can't convert into positive crap in my mind.
I hate it when I always worry, constant depression and Argh.
I continued my meds and it quite helpful. For now, I think.
Just enough whining for me.
I tried to digi paint but fuck. It's hard as crap. I can't blend things properly since information on the tutorial are quite in complete and I tried videos in you tube and they are too advance.
All I wanted is just to get better so I can digipaint and nice projects that can people be amaze on the message but this is just getting me dizzy.
All of that and this. I hate it and this emotions.
Anyways, I will first try to paint the (fcking) skin and hair. (i still don't know the proper way to color)